Yup. I really do. I loved them even more tonight when I watched our baby eat them. YAY! He ate!!! He woke us up at 4AM today with a sharp scream that only means one thing in this house…another load of laundry. so yes, he threw up AGAIN. Then one more time. Pretty much at our wits end here. Completely. But, I still took him over to sharon…and he did fine all day. As suspected, getting back in his routine helped him start eating….eating very mild, bland food, yes..but eating nonetheless. Then, he ate 2 pancakes with bananas tonight. HORRAY! So, I’m sure that was super duper important for you to hear…you can more on with your life now.
It’s totally the time of year when I am totally frustrated with my job. not so much the kids or parents, mostly with myself. I feel like things start to spin uncontrolably around me and I can’t stop the progression towards the end of the year. See, with kids that are going into kindergarten, I have to determine what services they will need, how much services, and where they might ‘fail’. unfortunately, that is often what the kindergarten teachers want to know. I have a large group of children transitioning, and I’m already getting completely overwhelmed with the amount of paperwork I’m trying to juggle and keep track of. Beyond that, they just dished me THREE new kids in the morning class…egads. In a matter of 2 weeks we almost doubled in size..talk about throwing off a group of kids, you know? So, the big problem with this time of year is the self esteem – I start to watch the class and think ‘Oh dear Lord, I’m doing NOTHING for these kids’. I don’t see the obvious progress, I feel like people are watching me saying ‘what in the world is wrong with her….she’s just babysitting’..and I feel like I can not make any good programing decisions. Down deep in my psyche, yes, I realize that as I do test scores and see a child’s social scores go from a 19% up to an 85%, that yes..they have made progres…but I guess maybe it’s just the ‘teacher’ thing. Or just me. More than likely, it’s just me. I need to up my meds.
on a lighter, ‘get over your pity party’ note…I pushed my fat butt into TWO pairs of pants I have not been able to even squeeze over my thighs since..oh…i don’t even remember. I mean, THAT long….a long long time. No, I can not YET wear them in public, but i’m close…oh so very very close.
Two posts and two days! It’s like a record! Glad to hear Logan is on the mend. Hang in there! Only a few more months and then Joe Schmo marathon weekend! (kidding) – But something awesome and fun!!!
Comment by Shauna Tominey — February 9, 2009 @ 9:37 pm
I sympathize with the end of the year transitioning mess. When I started to feel like I didn’t do enough for the children going to kindergarten, I would go back and re-read their initial present levels. It’s amazing how much progress they make in only a short amount of time! It’s unfortunate that the kindergarten teachers (they were that way in my district too) focus on what the children can’t do instead of the wonderful things that they can do.
Glad to hear that Logan is finally feeling better. I think pancakes make everyone better!
Comment by Michelle — February 9, 2009 @ 11:01 pm
For the first time, I can relate. I have two new kids starting this week and another next month, plus all my K transitions have to be done April 17th…we do a transition marathon day here…so they’re done before our April screening. Yikes. I feel like I’m at my desk more than I’m on the floor and I know that will only get worse as the semester goes by…
So sorry about Logan…glad things are looking up. And three cheers for gettin’ those pants on! Whoop! Whoop!
Comment by maudie — February 10, 2009 @ 10:34 pm
Yay for Logan. I hope he’s been doing a lot better since you wrote this.
As for the work you do. I can’t tell you enough how much we appreciate you. I know how much you are doing. Don’t ever feel like you just babysit. You do so much more even if you don’t always have a super lesson plan. You are always there for us, giving up lunch time to help, advice and give a shoulder to cry on.
BTW, got the sensory tub and Peanut filled a cup in her lap spilling rice all over my floor. Hmm, didn’t work like you promised.
Don’t worry, I’m not giving up on it, just need to get a shower curtain to put it on next time. Or maybe put the tub up on a kids table so she’s standing to play with it. After all, it’s only rice!
Comment by debbieyost — February 13, 2009 @ 11:06 pm